happy birthday,AZKA!

that bag is present from me,oji,yusti,ira,anyun,diko,evan,bela,jhapy



woooooooow,together!



with birthday boy,AZKA!



girls only



friendship!

zebra legging

emptiness

moody!
i hate everyone. why is my mind like this?
just hell-shit brain within negative thoughts.
it's kind of garbage which is something vain.
i don't exactly need that all,definetly not.
but am i a girl who just has bad,negative,and terrible thoughts?
i don't like the way i think sometimes. it hurts myself. wasting time!
there is emptiness in my heart and mind.
sometimes,i wondered that everyone hates me.
i just can do anything that can make me feel guilty to them.
but the effect is i hate them more. now,my heart is sensitive.
it's up and down. at this time,i feel half alive,under pressure,a lots of hates,sensitive,selective,and empty.
there are no people who can make me chill,my best friends are stay far of my life.
we just can keep contact via sms or internet something like that.
i need them who isn't talk about me behind and can make me cozy beside them.
my friends beside me all the time like they're far from me.
i don't feel they close. sooorrryy ...

RFW

ZSAZSAZSU (again)

wish me luck .. let see! hmmmm

an inevitable love

enough for me to chase you
enough for me to hope you
enough for me to do everything first
enough for me to force you become bold guy
enough for me to care about you
enough for me to curious about you
enough for me to get hurt

but ... it can't all make me to not thinking of you anymore.
i do cherish you!

boring ring ring

friday,10th april 2009

boooooorrreeeedddd hollliii-SHIT-daaaaayyyy!
hmm .. not really. but i feel that when the night comes,because there's no activities i can do.
this is rundown what i'm doing today:

10am : wake up
10am-1pm : finishing scumbag novel
1pm-3pm : watching dvd:my best friend's girl
3pm-5pm : watching dvd (again):bride wars .. i loveeee anne hatheway!
5pm : take a bath
5.15pm - 7pm : clean up my closet,this is the picture

read! this is my own fairytale

Mysterious Candy Room

Once upon a time,in a far far away. There was a little girl who lived in Happy Town. Her name is Autumn. She worked in candy shop,named 'The Rainbow'. The reason why she worked there,because she loved candies very much and she liked colourful things. She really loved her job,because she felt comfort if she had been there.
Before she worked,the owner of the Rainbow came to the shop. That old woman named Mrs.Underwood. She told to Autumn that she forbade to open one room at the corner of the candy shop.
One day,there was one of the guest who wanted to buy a bunch of white candies. She was confused about that,because in that shop there wasn't white candied. All of the candies in the Rainbow were colourful. She decided to find those white candies all over the shop. She looked for those candies everywhere,but the result still nothing! She hadn't found in that forbade room. Finally,she opened it because she was panic.
Suddenly,there was the very bright light came up and shine her body. The door was closed. When she opened her eyes,that light had taken her to white world. Everything was white. There was no colour things that she couldn't see. She didn't know where she was. She was looking for anybody in this world. As days went by,finally she found Mrs.Underwood in there. Her body wasn't like a real human body. Her body was white too. She talked to her
Autumn said,'Mrs.Underwood! Why do you look like become like this?'
Mrs.Underwood answered,'Don't talking about me,now just talking about you. How can you come to this world?'
Autumn said,'Dunno, It came by itself. I don't know why i'm here and why i can't look any colourful things?'
Mrs.Underwood replied,'Welcome to white world! There were no any colourful things in here. Because of your eyes blind of colours. You just can see one colour which is white.'
Autumn asked,'What am i supposed to do? I want to go back to real world mam!'
Mrs.Underwood answered,'You have to find witch on the top of hills. She is in pearly castle. This is the map which can bring you to her'
Autumn said,'Thank you Mrs.Underwood. I'll look for her'
Autumn followed that map. Finally,she could meet that witch. Unfortunately,the witch was lovable and sweet. After they talked each other,Autumn knew that she must drew everything in white world into colourful things with huge magical crayon. There was one condition,that was if she didn't drawn that white world,she couldn't have gone back to real world.
Finally,she could draw the white world become colourful. Then she went back to the real world. She talked to Mrs.Underwood about her experience,but she didn't know about anything what she talked about. After that moment,she was kept worked and promise to herself not to run againts of rules anymore.

created by : chila

NB : thank you for your help,eca and karin. muuuuuaaaah

myself scumbag

yes,Ivan Firmansyah is the real name of scumbag. this book storied beyond life and death of ivan. created by kimung,as we know he is ivan's best friend. ivan has already spreaded hardcore music became bigger bigger then bigger with his band,named burgerkill. go international has they reached. but there was something took his soul to God.

i love this title of the burgerkill song : EVERLASTING HOPE,NEVERENDING PAIN
even i don't know that song,i just like that sentence. it describes me at this moment! :'(

wicker park

cool! i love to watch this movie. romantic,then they could bring people who watched it,felt same as them too. it's touching heart,hard to guess the story and the most interesting part is it soundtrack,which is COLDPLAY - THE SCIENTIST at the end. yeaaah .. i'm going back to the start!

cersen tree

3rd april 2009! we're roooooccccckkkksssss. we climed the tree which located beside volley yard in our school and we took some cersen in one second botol of aqua. yeaaaaahh,it's yummy!

happy birthday fathaaah

5th april 2009 now you're 48! please long age my fathaah. i loooove you. happy birthday!
this is the dresscode of mine to celebrate his birthday.

location:lembang

scumbag fever!

jacket (badger), t'shirt (GBM), jeans (GBM), shoes (converse)

SCHOOL SUCKS

SCHOOL SUCKS! i don't like school at this time. can anybody motivate me,please? fucking teachers and subjects, maybe a little bit friends too. hmm .. bad scores,always being late,pressure from class leader named ELIN. she's like devil for me. what the fuck! every her lesson we have to do some exams. she's not consistance about what she said. secondly, i hate my english teacher. we called her 'JOWO EDAN' her act like being queen of truth. she feels that only her who always doing the right things. watch on your mirror please! or do i need to give you a mirror 1000 cm x 1000 cm? it's more obvious for you to see your reflection which is very disgussting! talking about the scores .. this is the most important thing that i hate. for example,i studied a little for exams. altough just a little,but i still try to understand the lesson. but my friends who didn't study could got bigger score than me because they were cheating. ok,i'm supportive for this affair. because i've been to be who cheating position. but i still can't receive the result. if i know it will be like that,i don't have to study for preparing the exams. if i study,the result will be same,bad! school is just finding good scores and graduate. that's it! talking about moral,maybe it puts on last number. zzzzzzz. bad habit but give many advantages in everything that we do. i don't wanna act like i never cheating,because that's kind of habit,bad habit exactly. every student ever do that,including me. but is it good for us? of course not.

yap we just have to be realistic to our life,life is hard,dude!
make the life on just the way it is,it feels like more live!
that's kind of life art,let it be!

NB: by stupid student from her heart voice