regret

If i knew that was our last time we met as a special one,i would never let you gi and stay here with me until now.
Tears have fallen to my face.
That is consequencies of my decision.
Honestly,what i said is the opposite what i want.
I don't force you ti understand me.
I know it's too hard for you.
Now,you are find your own way to reach the true love.
Here,i stay and looking for the chance to chase you again.
Poor me!
I'll scream inside the pillow to say i love you that the thing i said yet before.
I don't know what i'm feeling,but i always thingking of you every voyage that i take.
Every tones appears from my mobile i always hope that is is you give me some better inform.
Do you feel same as me? Or you too busy to wonder about me.
You'd rather chasing your girl before.
You're succes to let me down.
I need you,pleaaaassseeee don't forget our memories.
Thank you for everything,i'm not sad because it's over,but i'm happy because it happened :)

hahaha

TOO MUCH DRAMA,hahahahahahahahaha
it's not me for love affair,sorry

my first own song that really match with my condition right now

Untitled

For the first time
That just one word mean it
Sweet .. yeah mean it
You did anything i want

Reff:
Without complaint out from your mouth
Chase me Until appear the green lights
Yeah .. to be your lady,dude!
To be your the one,dude!
Those three magic words,ILY ILY ILY,ilove you!

When the condition has switched
My turn to chase you
You begin to far from me
Forgetting all the things that you've done

Bridge:
You're such a big loser
I want you to complete
Complete your responsi
Responsibility


NB: any idea for the title? please give some advices

i won't let you go

for the first time i did something nice with the first person.
hmmm .. ya i didn't regret about that.
after that,i heard that news. but i still confused for sad or smile heard that.
i'm scared if he want to let me go,and has the daily activities without me.
please don't be a jerk for me .. to be honest if i know the condition will be like this,i won't begin all the things from the first time we closed.
in fact,they are right said that if BOYS like girls from 100% to 0%,but if GIRLS like boys from 0% to 100%.
please,reply my message this afternoon. i'll wait. tell me if i have mistake to you.
i just can't belive if you change your mind immeditialy. i'm sorry,i just the girl who's negative thoughts. i wrote this notes just want to sharing,because i can't sharing this with my friends in my real life. now,the condition is unpredictable,especially you. i don't wanna be drama queen.
i don't like it before. but when i was closed to you,i felt the world suddenly stopped when the broken hearted came. i wish that won't happen.

finally i can bought this zebra legging!

love this so much!

full face


red tie and soft blue dress


colourful enough


beatles box!


this is me! :D

colourzzzzz

vote for OBAMA!

brachest in action!

'i love you'

he said those three simple words,eight letters,aaaaannnnddd unfortunately he's not mine.
but no problem,i was just shocked when read those words from him.
for now,this is keep my secret and my close friends. pleeaaaase help me from this situation!
should i get out from this or just let it be? hmmmmm ...
honestly i need him! yap,although i get hurt when he belongs to her :(

traktiran with SS

eca,eg,dwin,chila


girls are singing! yeaaaaaah


girls members of supersemay (eca) (karin) (chila) (ira) (jhapy)


this is bill of food from bumi joglo.


kara-OK at lemonade PVJ! and you must know,we met THOMAS DJORJI in here.


these are our order food at BUMI JOGLO ,nasi timbel ,sweet ice tea,and nasi liwet.


minus DHANTI. where are you? we miss you! happy with them ..


SUPERSEMAY! i love you all. i hope we can like this for often times.

unforgettable moment.

today is the day when i try something which never i did before. hmmmm .. what do i feel?
yaaaaaa .. i'm just curious of that. and know i don't curious anymore. because i tried that this afternoon. i wish it would never be my habit. amiiiiiiiiinnnnnn :D a little bit naughty la yaw! hahahaha

BIRTHDAY GIRL

sweet seventeen!


this clothes is from chum,chan. muaaaaah

this t-shirt is from my sister and her boyfriend


my cake from them (cizz blueberrycheesecake)


we watch wolverine at premiere cwalk


present from oji,anyun,ira,azka,bela,tammy,yusti

4 May 2009

at 12 am my friends came to my bedroom. they gave me a surprise. i'm very exciting. they are oji,eg,dwin,anyun,chum,chan,yusti,jhapy. after they gave me a surprise,we went to bubur pr at braga road. and the memorable thing was we fin 'bencong'! hahahahaha

unpad cup 2009

TWENTY SOFTBALL BASEBALL TEAM GOT THIRD PLACE! 1 week full,we've survived together to get this place. for softball team, 1st match was between 20 vs 7 and the result is we're the winner. 2nd match was between 20 vs 3 and the result is we're the loser. (unfortunately,i couldn't through this match,because i had to go to Jakarta) 3rd match was between 20 vs 5 and the result is we're the loser (again) 4rd match was between 20 vs 11 and the result is we're the winner. 5th match was between 20 vs 7 this was semifinal! and finally we got 3rd place! thank's god. same as twenty softball team,twenty baseball team got 3rd place too. CONGRATULATIONS!

happy birthday,AZKA!

that bag is present from me,oji,yusti,ira,anyun,diko,evan,bela,jhapy



woooooooow,together!



with birthday boy,AZKA!



girls only



friendship!

zebra legging

emptiness

moody!
i hate everyone. why is my mind like this?
just hell-shit brain within negative thoughts.
it's kind of garbage which is something vain.
i don't exactly need that all,definetly not.
but am i a girl who just has bad,negative,and terrible thoughts?
i don't like the way i think sometimes. it hurts myself. wasting time!
there is emptiness in my heart and mind.
sometimes,i wondered that everyone hates me.
i just can do anything that can make me feel guilty to them.
but the effect is i hate them more. now,my heart is sensitive.
it's up and down. at this time,i feel half alive,under pressure,a lots of hates,sensitive,selective,and empty.
there are no people who can make me chill,my best friends are stay far of my life.
we just can keep contact via sms or internet something like that.
i need them who isn't talk about me behind and can make me cozy beside them.
my friends beside me all the time like they're far from me.
i don't feel they close. sooorrryy ...

RFW

ZSAZSAZSU (again)

wish me luck .. let see! hmmmm

an inevitable love

enough for me to chase you
enough for me to hope you
enough for me to do everything first
enough for me to force you become bold guy
enough for me to care about you
enough for me to curious about you
enough for me to get hurt

but ... it can't all make me to not thinking of you anymore.
i do cherish you!

boring ring ring

friday,10th april 2009

boooooorrreeeedddd hollliii-SHIT-daaaaayyyy!
hmm .. not really. but i feel that when the night comes,because there's no activities i can do.
this is rundown what i'm doing today:

10am : wake up
10am-1pm : finishing scumbag novel
1pm-3pm : watching dvd:my best friend's girl
3pm-5pm : watching dvd (again):bride wars .. i loveeee anne hatheway!
5pm : take a bath
5.15pm - 7pm : clean up my closet,this is the picture

read! this is my own fairytale

Mysterious Candy Room

Once upon a time,in a far far away. There was a little girl who lived in Happy Town. Her name is Autumn. She worked in candy shop,named 'The Rainbow'. The reason why she worked there,because she loved candies very much and she liked colourful things. She really loved her job,because she felt comfort if she had been there.
Before she worked,the owner of the Rainbow came to the shop. That old woman named Mrs.Underwood. She told to Autumn that she forbade to open one room at the corner of the candy shop.
One day,there was one of the guest who wanted to buy a bunch of white candies. She was confused about that,because in that shop there wasn't white candied. All of the candies in the Rainbow were colourful. She decided to find those white candies all over the shop. She looked for those candies everywhere,but the result still nothing! She hadn't found in that forbade room. Finally,she opened it because she was panic.
Suddenly,there was the very bright light came up and shine her body. The door was closed. When she opened her eyes,that light had taken her to white world. Everything was white. There was no colour things that she couldn't see. She didn't know where she was. She was looking for anybody in this world. As days went by,finally she found Mrs.Underwood in there. Her body wasn't like a real human body. Her body was white too. She talked to her
Autumn said,'Mrs.Underwood! Why do you look like become like this?'
Mrs.Underwood answered,'Don't talking about me,now just talking about you. How can you come to this world?'
Autumn said,'Dunno, It came by itself. I don't know why i'm here and why i can't look any colourful things?'
Mrs.Underwood replied,'Welcome to white world! There were no any colourful things in here. Because of your eyes blind of colours. You just can see one colour which is white.'
Autumn asked,'What am i supposed to do? I want to go back to real world mam!'
Mrs.Underwood answered,'You have to find witch on the top of hills. She is in pearly castle. This is the map which can bring you to her'
Autumn said,'Thank you Mrs.Underwood. I'll look for her'
Autumn followed that map. Finally,she could meet that witch. Unfortunately,the witch was lovable and sweet. After they talked each other,Autumn knew that she must drew everything in white world into colourful things with huge magical crayon. There was one condition,that was if she didn't drawn that white world,she couldn't have gone back to real world.
Finally,she could draw the white world become colourful. Then she went back to the real world. She talked to Mrs.Underwood about her experience,but she didn't know about anything what she talked about. After that moment,she was kept worked and promise to herself not to run againts of rules anymore.

created by : chila

NB : thank you for your help,eca and karin. muuuuuaaaah

myself scumbag

yes,Ivan Firmansyah is the real name of scumbag. this book storied beyond life and death of ivan. created by kimung,as we know he is ivan's best friend. ivan has already spreaded hardcore music became bigger bigger then bigger with his band,named burgerkill. go international has they reached. but there was something took his soul to God.

i love this title of the burgerkill song : EVERLASTING HOPE,NEVERENDING PAIN
even i don't know that song,i just like that sentence. it describes me at this moment! :'(

wicker park

cool! i love to watch this movie. romantic,then they could bring people who watched it,felt same as them too. it's touching heart,hard to guess the story and the most interesting part is it soundtrack,which is COLDPLAY - THE SCIENTIST at the end. yeaaah .. i'm going back to the start!

cersen tree

3rd april 2009! we're roooooccccckkkksssss. we climed the tree which located beside volley yard in our school and we took some cersen in one second botol of aqua. yeaaaaahh,it's yummy!